Communication

I talked with someone last night who told me I need to talk more; 12 hours later my supervisor told me I need to talk more. 2 for 2. Count that, that is two days in a row that I have been told that need to communicate better. The thing is, is that I know I do. And the other thing is, is that I know that I can comminicate this way but I can't talk. I need to talk more. I hate talking because nothing ever comes out the way I think it is going to, so I remain silent. I continue to keep things to myself and would rather suffer in that way. Why am I cursed in this way? I am told that they would rather have people who commincate to much rather than people who do not commicate enough, and that I need to comunicate more. I wish I could just talk but when I am asked to talk I simply have no words. Last night I was told to let him have it and all I could think of was," no!" What the heck? I could have said I knew that this would happen. I was warned about it by some very reliable people, but I didn't. And now you have played me for the fool llike you thought I was. But no, the only thing that came to mind was, "No!"

How do I commicate better? I need something that causes me to talk, not to just sit all day. So I will continue to read Kierkegaard out loud at night, I love his writting anyways. Maybe that will help with the whole talking thing, hopefully. I am just to use to sitting and being silent.